So I Thought About It...

So I was lying awake a couple of nights ago, doing what I suppose anyone does when they lie awake at 3-am. Think. 

And my thoughts wandered to the conversation I had had with my future fiancee, who works as a counselor at a drug recovery center that treats inmates. He's a believer in self-exploration. In writing and expression for healing. Honestly, I agree. I find that in writing the things I am feeling or struggling with, I am better able to handle them, visualize them and conceptualize them, and to find solutions and put the problem away, so to speak. 

And so came the birth of this idea. 

What if I kept a journal regularly? Well, that sounded pretty good, I thought to myself, and yet, I wasn't satisfied somehow. I wasn't sure why really, but as I lie there, letting my thoughts ferment in my mind, I began to feel like I had more to offer with my words and ideas than what they could ever accomplish sitting on a shelf between the bindings of a beat up composition notebook. 

The more I considered it, the more I felt like I wanted to give something, share something, SAY something. 

I wanted to help others like me. 

I'm reminded of two of some of my very favorite quotes. One is from a graduation speech turned song by the name of Everyone's Free To Wear Sunscreen. The quote reads:

"Advice is a form of nostalgia; dispensing it is a way of 
fishing the past 
from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly 
parts, and recycling it for more than it's worth." - Eveyone's Free To Wear Sunscreen, Baz Lurhmann 

Maybe that's some of it. A way to make something out of my life's experiences, to somehow take the ugliness of my past and use it in a way that benefits the world. Or maybe I'm just an idealist.

The other quote comes from a Kimya Dawson song, Loose Lips. If you saw Juno (and who hasn't?) you might remember it.  The quote reads:

"And ask you what you think because your thoughts and words are powerful." -Loose Lips, Kimya Dawson

I truly believe that, and in a round about way I guess that's why I decided to start this blog. 

I can only hope that this blog will do that. Reach someone, touch someone, or maybe just be a guide for myself. Whatever it becomes, I know that this idea is one that will push me and stretch me, but I guess that's the only way we really grow, isn't it?